In a profession I am in, it is necessary that I write something every day and yes post and update my walls or blog to let people know I write. But the problem I face is I can’t get hold of the topic or subject I should write upon . There has been many days I have written something good, and today I want to break that break. And yes without a topic, or something which would ultimately wave back to my favourite topic, finding happiness.
I am stuck up in office. I am using the word stuck because I have been given a work which I have no clue as to how will I complete it and its terribly boring . This job is something I love to do though not the assignment I am assigned with . I have a flair for writing and I don’t know but somewhere out of the blue, against everything else I do , I feel a lot of satisfaction and happiness when I write something. And yes more or less that is much much more than for money. I know that.
I know, people do sometimes consider me as naïve or stupid if I say that money is not be- all and end- all of everything . They do feel that I don’t know how much is money important in life. They thing I am being ignorant of the world’s facts, the society’s ways. May be yes. May be I am relieved and unconcerned with the money I am earning because of the several support I am enjoying currently . May be I won’t be so relieved and fearless, when I have to fend myself alone . But I believe I will be still happy . I believe that, that extra money which I may earn by doing something I am not happy in, or doing that does not creatively satisfies me , may not give me my peace of mind and satisfaction as that other work would do.
I know I write the same things again and again, as if like reminding myself the same thing or may be its like reminding others that its ok if you are not earning like your peers or you are not a corporate giant. What important is what you are , what you want to do and what you think will give you happiness. I have always seen people go behind the nerd mentality and that too desperately. I still fail to understand why. I have and will always try to go against the crowd. Though I am very sure I will make my self very proud one day, I will fulfil all my dreams and I will become what I wish for sooner or later, but yet if, god forbid I am unable to do so, I get unable to earn like my peers by their profession( which they like or not ) I am confident I will be much happier, may be not richer. I will be listening to my heart and not my mind. Will bow before my happiness and not my pocket.
Though I still wait for ‘that’ perfect moment and ‘that’ right moment, I try my best to live my life fully in the moment , because I know that life is one and I have to do a lot of things in that single one. I know that I cannot and should waste my youth in doing things I can do all my life. I know I am a little conservative, little orthodox and little being full of constraints and limits for myself, but I think that is something I am working hard upon.
I come from a superbly defined family. Definite in values and goodness, in virtues and randomness, love and happiness. But what they have given me in abundance is good soul, a good heart and yes lots of support.
Lastly I may be contended and satisfied by how my life is going on presently, may be that will be a little roadblock in my further life, because I get too optimistic sometimes, already happy and grateful for what I have . But I know that gratitude has helped me evolve in a better person I am today, to ignore the bad experiences and bad events happening, like a passing stone on a road. It has helped me be a happier person, making my life happier.
I do not know why did I write and also post these things, but the one thing I know is that it has given mw creative satisfaction. I hope you know what I mean …